About three weeks ago I decided to go on a diet. I am really unhappy with how I look right now. I am doing this for myself, not for anyone else. I want to feel better about how I look and to feel healthier, have more energy. I have lost 9 pounds so far. I am pretty proud of myself and can even see some results. I know I will never be super skinny because I just don't have that frame for my body but my goal is to lose 25-30 pounds. Growing up I was never really over weight and I never had to watch what I ate or had to exercise but then after my son was born I didn't just go back to my previous weight before I became pregnant. I had assumed I would. My twin sister has had two children and still looks like she did when she was in high school. She is my twin, why couldn't it have been that easy for me? I'll tell you why, no two bodies are the same. I am doing really well on my diet. I keep away from pretty much all carbs and stick to mostly protein and I have veggies with dinner. A weakness of mine is ice cream and I have really been craving it especially in this hot southern weather but I am proud to say that I have not had any ice cream in three weeks!
I wanted to let my readers know that I am on a diet because I the recipes that I will be posting will be healthy ones and no more cookies or pasta dishes. I have found that there are quite a lot of yummy healthy recipes out there to make and to try. I may do a double post today and put up a new recipe. If you would like to know more about the diet that I am following please feel free to leave a comment and I will be more than happy to share it with you.
We still have had no word on command sponsorship for Korea. I'm starting to lose hope. My greatest wish is for my family to be together. My son suffers when he doesn't get to see his daddy everyday. The first thing he says when he wakes up in the morning is "Go, Dada, go?" He wants to go see his Dada and I always have to say no not today. It breaks my heart. People tell me to be happy that at least he won't be deployed or even one person said to me at least your husband is still alive. Yes, of course I am extremely happy about those things but it is never easy be away from the love of your life. My heart is in pain from missing him everyday. I don't think that makes me a weak person. Being with out your other half is like a part of you is missing. And just because I am missing him does not mean I will let it affect my day to day life or even let it affect our son. We still have our life to live and go about our day as normal as we possibly can under these circumstances. I'm not going to lie and say that after I put my son to bed at night that I don't go to our own bed and cry from missing him, Because I do. I have my bad moments just like every one else does. As much as I would like to be I am not a super hero. I can't always be strong.
If you are reading this, please pray for my family. Pray that we will get approved for command sponsorship and if that doesn't happen please pray we will have the strength to get through this next phase of our life.